"Fake it till ya make it" just isn't cutting it anymore.
It was one month ago yesterday that I found out my man was a fake, fraud, phony, narcissist. Yes, I said it. He was more that just a selfish asshole. Pray that you never encounter one outside of reading a case study.
It was one month ago today that I walked away from him at the airport knowing it would be the last time I would see him. The last time I would tell him goodbye.
Today is the day to start something new.
No more giving myself permission to make choices that aren't healthy for me "because you deserve to take a break". No more justifying sitting on the couch eating pizza. Done. No more justifying self medicating so I don't have to feel. Done. No more unhealthy self destructive behavior. Done.
It's all about getting back into my good routines that make me happy rather than down on myself when I already have reason enough to feel a bit down as it is.
Things around this joint will only get out of control if I let them. Uh, and my inner control freak sure as heck isn't going to let that happen. If there is one thing in this world I can control it's ME!
Oh, gotta go... doorbell, my last pizza is here. I'm typing this to post tomorrow. Nobody's perfect.