If you haven't checked them out .... do so ASAP.
I got turned on to two "deals" web sites that I'm loving. Of course a little pizzed that I missed out on two deals for things that I was buying anyway...one being the cooking class I just took! That's how I found out about it, one of the guys asked "Did you get this thru Groupon" ::crickets:: ::blank stare:: "Uh no... what is that?" "Oh cool thanks.. good to know I could have done this for 1/2 the price"
Every day they offer up a new "deal" for your respective area...good deals like 50% off restaurants and services and fun stuff! If enough people are interested and click to buy, the deal is "ON" and you get your groupon for the offer. If they don't get enough people then the deal is "OFF" and you aren't out anything.
Very similar to Groupon, BUT if you buy a deal and three of your friends buy it as well yours is FREE! I love FREE. Can't beat that... planning a girls night? You buy a $30 restaurant certificate for $15 (great deal all by itself) then your girlfriends buy the same and yours is free.
If you follow this link and sign up for email notifications you get $5 coupon bucks to use toward your first purchase... and yes, I'd get $5 too once you make a purchase. I'm just sayin, if you are inclined to join the mailing list why not get $5? Sign up for Living Social here and get $5!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
If you haven't checked them out .... do so ASAP.
90...that's a lot of years under your belt
My beloved Granny turned 90 this week. I travled back home for a little celebration.
It involved a hummingbird cake and a bouquet of 90 roses.
I'm quite proud of myself for making this little beauty.
I've been feeling pretty lost, loney, and unaccomplished lately. I just can put my finger on what it will take for me to not feel this way anymore. I'm trying to just live in the moment and enjoy my life. I've had so much on my plate to deal with the last couple of years I feel like I've lost the ability to just live. I feel like I need to be doing something BIG, accomplishing something, working on a grand goal, helping someone, even being in crisis mode. ( I know that last one sucks but it's how I've been operating a lot)
Every morning I wake up and tell myself that I'm choosing to be happy and joyful and living my life to the fullest for that day but it doesn't take long for all the worry and trying to get control takes over.
I really wanted to talk to The Ex and got a "ring twice then the call is gone" kind of deal from him on Wednesday night. That sucks, not like I can just ring him back. Haven't gotten a call, email or skype from him since. I'm not feeling worried, this time it's all about me... I felt I needed to hear his voice. He can still say a few words and clam me.
Stuff from the accident I was in this summer is starting to roll. I had managed to kind of stuff it all away in the back of my head but now things are getting started it brings up unexpected feelings. I know getting it all started means the end is closer but the reality of dealing with insturance companies and lawyers is just *bleh*. I do feel better having an attorney, that means I don't have to talk to folks and try to deal with insurance companies myself but it's something I'd rather not be doing. I guess the good part is that my insurance pays for him.
This is pretty much enough rambling on for now. Back to work!
Monday, February 8, 2010
On Friday I retracted the offer I had in on a condo. When you are buying a condo you get a shit load of paperwork on the HOA and their financial positions, rules, regulations etc. It's called their Resale Certificate. It was almost 200 pages of eye crossing put you to sleep reading.
Me being me, I'm all into the details and did my due diligence and saw some stuff I don't like. Particularly a 30% increase in the HOA dues and still not enough will be in their reserve funds to cover the maintenance that will be required in the next 2-3 years. (It's a late 70's building).
So buy buy offer. I was not comfortable with what I saw.
BUT BUT BUT... here is where "the sign" comes in.
On the exact same day I took my other offer off the table, this unit came back on the market. *yay me* They had an open house on Saturday so I went to take a look. The issue with this one turns out to be some lack of storage. The storage on thet deck is maybe 1/2 of what I have not and there is no storage in the laundry closet (just big enough for a stackable units) and only an ity bity coat closet. In exchange for that lack of storage, I gain a 3/4 bath. So some give & take and it would be a very sweet deal if I can get it down to the top of my price range.
Making an offer today. Wish me luck!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
This last week I’ve been CRAVING physical contact with my mom. I’ve tried to connect in a spiritual/mental way, trying to hear her voice in my head and at times feeling that nothing short of being able to touch her will do. At times I almost felt in a panic knowing that I won’t ever be able to get that feeling again, to put my arms around her, to just have her there physically in front of me to touch and hear her laugh. It’s been too long, what if I forget how she feels? What if I forget the sound of her voice? I have a few recording of her. I wish I had saved ever voice mail she left me. I use to laugh listening to the answering machine or voice mail when she’d call back 4 times in a row to say things she forgot the first time. The messages would always start out the same and almost sounded like a re-mix, “Hey kiddo…. “ “Hey kiddo….” “Hey kiddo…” What I wouldn’t do to have those now.
The night before last I had a little breakdown, or it could be called a breakthrough of sorts. I’ve tried to talk to her on occasion but it often doesn’t feel natural. I don’t feel connected to the spirit that I’m trying to have the talk with. I know her spirit is with me always and I know it was her that saved my life as my guardian angel when I was in a really bad car accident this summer. ( I have a visual of her just split seconds before the accident fighting thru the separation between her new world and my world to protect her baby and shield me… she wasn’t a forceful person in general, but don’t mess with the Mama Bear!) Other than in a dream the night before her funeral (which was also my birthday) I’ve never been able to create that feeling of really talking to her. I’ve heard people tell stories of how things have happened and they know their loved one is there or how they hear a voice or feel something that lets them know that spirit is present. I want that. I’ve been trying and asking for that experience. Well, I had it. It wasn’t quite as strong or dramatic as I imagined it, but I felt her. I got a hug from my mom.
I was on the couch watching a woman on TV express how she had been holding on to regrets over things not said when her father passed. It was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Not because I relate to her having regrets, just the opposite. What a gift my mom gave me, she passed leaving me with no regrets. That is two sided, my actions played a part in that as well but she literally told me, “Do not have any regrets. I don’t want you to think you didn’t do enough or help enough”.
I sat on the couch crying and saying “Thank you. Thank you so much for giving that to me.” They were tears that didn’t come from sadness. It was emotion that I felt as overwhelming appreciation and thanks for that gift. As much as I’ve hurt, and sad as I still am that my mom is gone, thank god I don’t live with the burden of regret.
I continued to talk to her, I told her some of the things that I was feeling. With my eyes closed and covered with my hands, I cried and told her I missed her. I also told her I knew I was going to be just fine, but boy wouldn’t it be better if she were still here. I told her about how much fun my Granny and I were having when we spend time together. I even laughed thru my tears with some of the things I had to tell her. And then I got my hug. It’s hard to explain, it wasn’t like a real physical hug, I didn’t feel her arms around me. With my eyes closed and still flowing tears there was a visual of her. I could see me sitting on the couch and her face and somewhat of a form of an upper body where there in front of me. As her arms extended they kind of turned into a foggy mist that started over the top of my head and slowly cascaded down over my shoulders and enveloped me. As this was happening I felt the greatest release of tension in my body. I knew she was there and she was comforting me.